Haseen Lamhe

Chal rahi thee yuhi zindagi kuch gumsum si lamhe liye
Charo taraf andherapaan Aur akelapaan ko siye
Tham si gayi thi zindagi, un saare haseen lamho koh bhulake
Jabhi koshish ki yaad karne ki, un haseen lamho ke bare
Tab tab har ek haseen lamhe ne daard di mujhe rulake
Socha tha ab yahi zindagi hain..
Sare armaan tut chuke the
Inhi rahoon main chal rahi thee ki dur se ek roshni dikhi..
Pass ayi toh dekha tum the
Dil mein ek ghabrahaat si hui- kahi phir se chin na jaye mujhse sab..
Par tumne mujhe yakin dilaya apne pyaar se..
Aur ek bar main chal pari sab kuch bhulake
Un haseen lamho ko sajane.
Abhi tum ho mere paas, mujhe apne saath liye chale,
Kuch purane and aur kuch nayein lamhoo ke sahare
Socha tha tumhe bhi talaash thee isi lamhe ki
Paar abhi jana ki
Abhi bhi tum phir rahe hoon us ek haseen lamhe ki talaash main..
Trisha

Is there an emotional reality?

There is a point in everyone’s life where one don’t know which decision would be for betterment..

Certain situations, certain people, certain thoughts, certain values..

It’s all so complicated that it’s hard to understand.

I recognised my problem has been in understanding people

The people you give a chance to don’t value you most of the time

And the people you let go, thinking what if they put you through the same

Tend to be the ones who later keep occupying your mind..

So either way it tends to be an emotional loss.

All this situations that life makes us go through tends to question me, if there is a point of such a sacrifice? Does it all mean throughout one’s life? Is there a thing call reality in terms of emotions?

As of now you must have realise- for me it’s hard, hard to take a risk, hard to trust, hard to understand true emotional existence and so will it be forever...

When you walk through the maze of life....

There is millions and millions of adventures on the way to the end...

Some which gives a good dream like state feeling and some which leaves you thunder stroked...

But there is one thing about this whole phase of life...

The one thing you once loved..

No matter how much u try to forget it,

Or how much you want to hate it,

But if once you ever seriously fell for it, then it never goes...

It might be fading a bit ..

It might not be the same fresh feeling like the early days but it’s there..

That liking and the happiness related to it never goes...

Even after you grow old just the glimpse of that person and the feel of him near you makes world a beautiful place...

A place you would never want to leave...

A place to live in which you a ready to suffer a life’s worth...

The essence of some people you meet

People come into your life every single day

With some you create a bond, with some you don’t

So did I...

Met few miles stones of my life

They still are but unfortunately we are never in touch

Everyone just seems to have moved on in life

But I still got myself tangled up in that stage never came out of it

Still feel the emptiness

Still feel my cheeks wet when I think back to those times

But after such a long time I did manage to build up a new garden over the old one

And guess what ?

All over again it’s drying

All over again I feel like I am losing someone

Feel like I am lonely

It’s hard to accept it

But I guess that’s life

Even after realising the hardship I have still decided that

For a person like me who finds it difficult to accept certain facts about life,

it is better to never get very close to anyone cause when they leave

it hurts and it does real bad....

A feeling you have deep down in you

You recognise it but you are missing the proper words

Something gloomy

Something frustrating

But you still don’t have the right way to express it

It feels fallow

It feels strange trying to work out how your mind plays games with your heart

Manipulating you

There is a cyclone of thoughts in your mind

You know how to fix it and you are sure what you want

But its way out of your rule

You can only wish for it but the reality is you can never achieve it

Life turns against you at this very juncture

You feel powerless

You are tied to the chain of misery

Now all you need is the person of your dream

The one you love

But even he isn’t there

You are alone

Alone to face the battle

Here you are left with two options

You fight it or you leave it

The irony for me is i choose to leave it

As i am weak....

Full Moon

Its 3.19 am .....The world seems silent...

There’s only faint sounds of cars coming from the distant highway.....

It’s all serene and beautiful....

It’s a fool moon night too...

Never seen the moon so bright...

The rays passing through the curtains and making a lovely glow of reflection on my wall....

At this point I just want to sleep under the sky in someone’s arms...

Someone being in whose arms my mind would be free...

The warmth of whose arms would make me fall asleep,

After long long days of sleepless nights..

Someone who would send me to my dreamland......

And I would finally have a peaceful rest......

Being with whom I can be me...

Someone who would help me be me....

Someone who would forever be there with me..

Every single night when I Finish my day and go to bed,

And every single morning, with a smile, holding my hand,

Only to wish me a good morning....

Well all this sounds true in a movie I know...

But it’s my heart which believes that someday, someone would come and make me live my dream....

Love to that someone for whom I will eagerly be waiting....

And my world would be complete.....

Looking back to my life...

A journey which was both tremendously enjoyable and painful...

Years passed away and I am 21 now...

When I look back today all I see is my struggle to be loved by someone selflessly....

Someone who would love me the way my mom and dad does , unselfishly...

Someone who would treat me like a princess...

Like a delicate darling ..

But my misfortune that I never got that kind of happiness...

I had everything from my family but I still craved to be loved...

Everyone laughed at me when I said I am born to love...

I did surround my world around this word...

Met many people in life...

Everytime I tried to figure out is this the one...

But everytime I lost...

Even This time I lost it...

Till today I just couldn’t find someone who would love me selflessly,

Someone who would think about me first and then everything else...

Someone who would love me the way I do....

Now I have lost hope...

I am tired of this journey..

I take it to be my fate...

A fate where I was never suppose to discover the taste of true LOVE ..

It’s sad as till the end of me I would still hold this dream in me....

Of love and

To be loved......